4/10/26

this is kinda a shit post for a blog post, i really just wanted to have something out on this. I am working really hard right now just to get the frame work for all of my pages but i feel really like annoyed that i dont have any content to post right now lol. honestly the scariest thing ever is that a whole bunch of people get to see my half done website. LIKE GUYS I KNOW ITS NOT FINISHED YET DONT JUDGE ME, anyways this is just a little bit of a blog post to let everyone know whats going on in my life even though none of yall know me. i dont know if i should opperate under the guise of yall know exactly who i am, or i should like over explain who i am, or maybe i just stop freaking out about it. so i really wanted to treat this as a diary sort of thing, im not even a hundred percent sure what a blog is. i actually am not a hundred pecent sure of what anything is ever. its four am which is right about the time i start contemplating everything which i dont think is good for anyone. i have school in 4 hours sigh. Also i just got done writing my first short film and i am so so so excited, i have this issue where i have so many passions but i dont think i want to do them for a career, like i want to make short films i enjoy directing and acting and writing and filming things but i dont want to go mainstream with it. i would like to rephrase my previous statement. its not that i dont want to make art or films as a carrer, i just dont want to be famous for it. i want to influence people and make people feel seen, but i dont wan to be in the mainstream if that makes sense. i cant fathom making art on a larger level and that terrifies me. i say yall because im from texas and ive never been in a situation where ive been like so self aware of me doing it. dont judge me. okay thats all.